Why on Earth?

Wish I could say we are retiring early. That we won the lotto and are escaping from the zombie relatives coming back from the dead for their cut. That we have planned for years, and it’s been our lifelong dream.

The truth is, it was a fear that someday it would happen. If you have known J and I the 16 years (this May 30th) we been married, then perhaps you know he had lived here illegally for majority of those years.

ICE knocked on our door one morning, April 17th, 2013, and deported him to his birth land. Although he has lived here since a toddler, he considers himself an American, USA is all he knows but he feels he does not belong anywhere. U.S. does not want him and Mexico is not his home.

deportation

He does belong with his family. That would be ME, Johnny (10), Manuel (6), and Elaina (3).

I didn’t always feel this way. After they deported him in the first few years of marriage, I was ready to move on. He has always said he wanted to grow old with me. He returned because I would not go and has not relinquished his commitment to me or his kids for one second.

I may have been afraid to move before; okay I am still afraid. I do want to move. It now sounds exciting. I look forward to our new adventures. I get to live in another country! I get to go visit clear blue beaches. Like the ones we visited when we were in Florida. Even better they will now be our beaches.

home

J has all of our hearts, and maybe some of yours.

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2 thoughts on “Why on Earth?

  1. I’m really sorry about what happened to J. About a year ago, ICE knocked on my door and put my wife and I in deportation proceedings. I know it hasn’t been easy for you and I know that not many people including me understand the intensity of the strain and emotions that you and your family feel. As someone who’s going through deportation, I wanna tell you to stay strong. I trully believe that your best years are ahead of you.

    • :’) Just reading your comment makes me emotional its so mindful. It is extremely difficult, the hardest part is almost behind US (you included, its going to happen soon!) & I also believe, the best years are ahead. All the encouragement I receive here means so much to me.

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